tram

I've recently been taking the tram home quite late at night. Tonight, the tram driver remembered me and we had a bit a of a chat. He's driven me to my tram stop a couple of times. He asked me how I was and I replied, "Tired." and he nodded his head and replied understandingly, "Sometimes life is hard." His words were comforting.

I haven't been having the best week. I feel a bit more "out of it" than normal. It might be the cold change in weather, but all I want to do is be in bed and dream. I've been doing my work so slowly at my own pace and it's made me feel unsuccessful in comparison to others who seem to have covered more ground than me.

The late nights have filled my head with a fog that only sleep and stars can cure. Tonight the moon was so beautiful and the stars seemed brighter.

I wrote a song on Tuesday. I've showed a few friends and they are like it, which makes me happy! Maybe i'll post it one day when I record it better. It's quite short.

There is more work calling. 

Sleep well

things to do...

a short term list of things to do!

music:

guitar all the time
START learning drums
make songs and keep trying to make new songs

eat:

cutler & co.
dumplings at hutong dumpling bar
toodouri korean BBQ
izakayaden
spice temple


art:


draw all the time
sew at least 12 objects/things this year
paint


read:


finish all the magazines next to my bed
the outsider

computer:

illustrator
learn some rhino basics
learn some 3d max basics
inDesign basics

room:


table for printer
some sort of bookshelf

work space

"bear shaped hole in my heart"

At intern today I put together a number of necklaces and also got to melt some metal. I loved how the flux became a glassy surface over the metal when I heated it. I also think the spontaneous appearance of blue and green is wondrous.

I also picked my bear up from the silver people. I'm making this bear for a friend. I think it's going to be hard to give it away especially after all the time that's gone into it. I feel like i've already grown quite attached to it. Vic and I were talking about how it's so difficult to give away the first edition of something. She told me that I will forever have a "bear shaped hole in my heart". I HOPE THAT ISN'T TRUE. Oh bear, oh bear! I will miss you.

It's already friends with my cat fox.

watching light through the curtains

I went up to Glen Waverley to visit my grandparents. My 94 year old grandpa had recently fallen down the stairs and I heard he was badly bruised... He's ok now. He's still healing but will still climb up and down stairs during the day.

Before arriving at their home, I met up with my aunties and had afternoon tea with them (soy latte and pistachio macaroon. yum yummm!) I was happy to see them all. One of my aunties insisted on showing me this purple kettle and toaster (she knows I love purple!) they were quite nice! I think she was more keen for them than I was though!

On arrival, I was greeted by my grandma (my Poh Poh) with happy smiles. I chatted with her and watched the F1 (i actually don't even understand the F1 at alllll) and while it played in the background she talked to me about how she had been.

Later, I went upstairs to talk to my grandpa (my Gung Gung) we talked about what had been on the news, and also about nature (he loves nature documentaries and animal documentaries!- like me!) and I told him about the photographer and the seal.

My aunty cooked my favourite dish for dinner (I was super excited, hohoh. yum yum) and afterwards I spent around 2 hours helping her understand her new iphone! It was awesome to see her so keen on learning about new technologies.

I couldn't sleep so I wandered into the spare room and found my old chinese book. I read words in chinese and then soon fell asleep.

I woke up to the neighbour hanging out washing at 6:30am. I'm glad they woke me up because I was just in time to take photos of the sunrise.

I had a nice time at Glen Waverley.

musical healing

mmmmmm

late night water colour

a mission IN SPACE

I am awake talking to my friend who lives in Rome. I miss him so much. It's been two years since I've been in his company. I miss the upside down city and spontaneous trips to the ocean and our last day.
I love that we still laugh together and say the same things.

happy day

Today was so much better than yesterday. I walked from home past the botanical gardens towards the city. The air was so lovely and cold.

As I walked, a familiar face past me. I didn't stop them and ask them who they were. But I'm very sure she was in my primary school and briefly in my high school. I used to know her.

Everyone I seemed to run into seemed lively and happy. I met a american man who was taking photographs of smoke hitting a strong ray of light- it looked as if the smoke was cut clean in half. It was beautiful.

The woman at the city library who helped me change my address had a wonderfully positive air.

I was so content to just wander around. I went to the NGV and browsed a lot of their books. I really want money so I can buy a few! I was particularly intrigued by this photographer who took photos of polar bears, seals and penguins in the freezing parts of the world. He documented this one encounter with a seal that he was photographing underwater. He and the seal were constantly interacting and, what I found most interesting was, that there were points where the seal tried to feed him dead penguins that it caught... and when he rejected them, the seal would show anger by blowing air from it's nose. The photographer wrote that whenever he moved too close to the seal, the seal would stop and make it known that it felt that he crossed the boundary into the its personal space... and when he moved far away sometimes the seal would move closer. The connection between them was fascinating and the photos he took where awesome too!

Afterwards, I went upstairs to the contemporary art space. The art curator/security guard man came up to me and asked me "what I thought" about the artwork in the room. I said it was, "different" but I liked the colours and some patterns. He was russian. We talked about how important family is (siblings, his children and spending time with family), how living is quite dangerous (a life lost on a train, ipods and crossing the street without looking, plane flights), how infrastructure is improving (750km in only 2 hours by train!) and also about phobias (he told me lots of people were afraid to walk over the glass floor in the NGV and even acted it out) and what kind of artwork we liked (he liked impressionism). I think I only spoke to him for about 20 minutes... but I really really enjoyed the time and company. I think I always love talking to strangers who are open and kind and not creepy at all. I value those moments.

Nay texted me to say she was being unproductive at home and wished to come to the city and do some uni work. We met up and ate too much yum yum food and talked about uni and thoughts. It was nice to sit in Degraves - First time! We then walked to the GPO to analyse the intricate details which we will later have to reproduce using RHINO. We got quite distracted and ended up walking into clothing shops and talking to shop keepers about jeans and jewellery exhibitions.

Nay wanted to buy gum so we went to 7/11. The man behind the counter asked me whether I knew the chinese characters on the instant noodle packet I had just told Nay was tasty. I read out the last two characters and he taught me the rest. Nay thought he was my friend... I had never met him before.

Later we attended the jewellery exhibition. It was rather quiet, but the designers had done a impressive job of altering the interior space they were given. They stuck paper bags to the ceiling and the effect it had was great. It would have much more impact if they did it to the whole ceiling! I imagine that it would have taken a very long time and also would be a strain on the arms (all the blood rushing downwards). The jewellery itself was decent but I wasn't in awe of any pieces.

We finally got to uni at about 6:00 and spent two and half hours reconstructing a pillar in the GPO. Rhino does my head in... But I feel as though I am getting better. I feel more confident... and I am just happy about that. I secretly enjoy watching myself and my peers gradually loose our minds during classes. It's humorous to work in such a deranged state of mind.

We left feeling satisfied. I'm glad I've done some work for that class.

I'm tired now. I think I will play guitar and hope that words come to me so that I am able to make a new song. He and I have almost finished our first song. I don't know when it will be done, but I am content with the state that it is in and I love the words that we've both written.

Goodnight.

feeling a bit shit

I woke up to the sound of rain. All I could hear was it falling heavily on the pavement, the trees and roof. It was so peaceful. I wish it had lasted longer.

The time spent at school was filled with a nervousness and stress about projects and presentations, but in the end it seemed to come together acceptably.

At lunch I ventured to my workplace. On the way I met some tourists and chatted about random things and places. It was nice to meet kind people, especially when I know I probably wont ever see them again.

The workplace was quiet and quaint. I miss being there on Friday. We talked about lots of things and I gave her my print screening tools to test out. I hope they work for her.

I was tired all through my main class. I didn't want to be. I normally love being there, but today I had had a coffee and it was so good at the start and then my energy just dropped. I suppose it was also to do with all the worry I had inside me, knowing mum would be under some anesthetic for a while. There is always that fear that she wouldn't wake. I was worried all day... but she's fine and just needs some rest.

I left class a bit disappointed. I wanted to have enjoyed it more... But there are more lessons. So I will just accept today as what it was. It's good to feel sad every so often.

As I was walking home all I could hear was the sounds of race cars - I can still hear them now - I hate how their noise rips through peaceful air. I would much rather hear the sound of wind being carefully conducted by leaves.


I think I will draw tonight.

I like the way grass feels.

cold joining

I spent most of my time at work today putting together necklaces, hammering and cutting silver. It was a rather productive and happy day!

I literally spent two hours in the afternoon trying to make, what i thought would be, a simple ring. I was so wrong. I hoped to make a super thin cold joined silver ring. The silver I used was about 1.5mm wide and 0.5mm thin. It was just a really fiddly job and the silver that is used to hold the wire together kept dropping out. 

It was just good to try cold joining. Vic ended up helping me secure the ring so that it formed a complete circle. Next week I'll make more rings/objects just to practice the cold joining. I am keen on getting better!

Here's the ring I half made today!

printer

I FINALLY GOT A LASER PRINTER/SCANNER!
I am super happy about this. Hellooooo my new friend!!
I can finally scan things onto my laptop! whooohoo!

bed

I don't really want to leave my bed. The weather outside makes it perfect for dreaming, and I slept so well last night.