bruises

still healing

bike

I happily spent Tuesday with Panda Ariel at the bike shop putting together the last bits of my new recycled bike. It was the first sunny day in a while and I made sure I got a good dose of vitamin D for my ill body. I'd been sick (and am somehow worse now) all week, so it was nice to be out in the sun.

We rode our bikes to gertrude street and on the way there i had this vision of Pandas, Viv, Sarah and I bike riding and going on a picnic in the springtime all happy together. Hahaha - obviously missing class excursion fun times.

We spent some the evening sitting in the park. We watched and commented on keen joggers and yelling coaches as they ran by. I was happy to just sit and talk under trees that sounded like the ocean. I listened to many stories of his life; some of which made me feel at ease and ever thankful to know him.

We met Andii and I had dinner with them at a dumpling place. I listened to them talk about different classes and assignments and we all stared and laughed at the cups that moved by themselves across the the table. I cried a bit inside when they told me they ate at Din Tai Feng when they were up in Sydney.

It was a peaceful day with the Pandas.

It felt just like the first time I hung out with them.

spaceman

ready to see the earth

writing

letz get icecream

fro yo in the sun

v and i had our yumyum day on the weekend. We met up at the station and wandered to the city to eat udon noodles and ice cream. We talked about how good noodles and ice cream are and also spoke about what's been happening in our own lives.
We went back to my house and v make me tea to calm my sickness - a delicious white tea. I made edamame so we could snack while we sat on the coach. I made one half of the packet and then after an hour or so v made the other half and i could hear her in the kitchen shakin' so much salt over the beans. I laughed so hard. This girl likes salt. I played Zelda and v was keen to watch. She laughed at how bad I was and we screamed when things got scary.

Happy to have had a day with v as it has been so long. It's good to relax and be a cats every so often.

the point

nettle soup and snails

foie gras, lobster, quince and walnut

coral trout, butter poached prawns

suckling pig, pine nuts, chicory and dark ale

porterhouse, otway shiitake mushrooms, pommes puree and broad

pear souffle and spiced ice cream

ghost

no sleep

taking the train home before sunrise
thinking I should wait a half our to watch the skies light up
but my eyes keep closing
a bit afraid I will fall asleep on the train

we go past street lights
i feel like i'm on a spaceship
flying quickly by countless galaxies.

dance bear

collecting the petals
that have fallen from the flowers beside my bed
thinking how beautiful they are
even though their life has almost left them completely

tired of many things
but still hoping one day 
they will come

constantly fighting bad habits
staring at skin
and thinking the keys aren't far

feeling so susceptible to weather change
checking phone for a sunny image
checking phone for a message from you

not really caring
it's just another bad habit

thinking the other day
how easy it must be to not care
and thinking I could probably let it all go
and wondering why I haven't yet

some part of me just wants to question feeling lost
the rest of me just wants to stare at skies
or sleep
or make
or jump on my bed, feel happy and not think of anything too "deep"

enjoying making people ask me questions
thinking it is because i want to see how my body answers
maybe i will learn something new about myself
maybe i am curious to see what people want to know about me

loving the sound the wind makes

when it moves through dried leaves

so calming

wishing for the world to stop for a moment

and see how amazing everything is

and take a moment to love who they are

reflecting the faces that i have seen during the day

some of them seem more real than others

wanting to know their story

wondering where my story will lead

sleep.

let's take a photo of a goat in a boat

watching so much of the Flight of the Conchords videos.

Sooo funny.

Favourite three:

Hurt Feelings

I told You I Was Freaky

Robots

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Vanni is back in Italia and I am laughing with him right now talking about what our fictional kids would look like being Australian, Chinese and Italian. He just said, "They'd be super cute when they are little and then they would grow to be gorgeous... all our two sons and one daughter."

HAHAH god this is hilarious.