Little Wonders - Rob Thomas
To Build A Home - The Cinematic Orchestra
Sweet Disposition - The Temper Trap
Volcano - Damien Rice
Featherstone - The Paper Kites
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So, this morning I woke up and decided to get on with my Make assignment! The last couple of days has rendered me super exhausted. I have honestly just wanted my face in my pillow and to be covered in blanketssssss.
Heating the wax was easy enough. I hacked at the huge egg of wax and put it in the mini sauce pan. I learnt not to keep it on the stove long because the wax would start to fume (the alarm went off one time... and that really woke me up)
I tore lines of different tissue paper and mixed the into the wax.
I also dipped larger, individual, pieces of tissue into the wax and tried working with that.
I originally wanted to make a tissue and wax mask for my face. I wanted to mold the materials to my face. I tried doing it a few times... I just felt like it was sort-of dangerous because the wax would stick to my face and my eyebrows and when I took it off I really feared losing an eyebrow in the process.
I managed to get a decent form, but I wasn't satisfied with the final outcome so I decided to move onto something different.
I think I wrote in a previous post, that I was interested in extending the body or creating another skin for it. I started looking at my hand as it's own kind of creature - It seeks shelter, comfort, ect. I decided to create a cocoon around my left hand.
I actually really love the final outcome of it. The colour of the wax almost suits the colour of my skin. I found the tissue and wax such an interesting combination - the tissue was so soft and once the wax hit it it became super tough, but at the same time it looked fragile because of the qualities of the tissue.
cocoon
I had a really good time creating this. I totally messed up my kitchen though. There was wax almost everywhere. The process of it was not at all easy. At one point I wanted to extend the idea of the cocoon and start building the same sort of form around my shoulders and up my neck, I put all this "warm" waxed tissue on me and it wasn't working, so i took it off, put my glasses on and saw that my skin was so so so red I really thought I burnt myself. But after wrapping myself in a cold towel, I felt way better and the redness went away.
The most difficult was putting the wax on my face, cus I was really cautious about how hot the wax was before i put it on. It was difficult to know the exact time to put it on, a lot of the times it'd be too hot, or too cold. I think that if I want to make a mask... i'd have to use someone else's face. Hahaha.
Georgie liked my work -phew- I actually really adore her. She is so nice! Today she was showing us some of her silver work, and she was like, "Oh Izzy! I brought you this!" and handed me a small packet -Last class she took out a small packet that had a wet towel in it for cleaning glasses and I was like "ahh where do you get those? they are so handy!" (cus glasses get dirty or smudged often, esp when im working with my hands a lot) and so she gave me one of those today and i was so happy HAHAHA even though it's not even anything. It's just really nice and thoughtful of her and was a surprise!
At the end of class she went around to everyone to discuss our ideas for the next project. I was showing her my Make book (this small A5 that we're meant to document and write/draw our ideas in) and i was flipping through the pages and she was like, "Wait!! go back!" and took my book and flipped to the front and pointed at my drawings and said, "I really love your drawings!" and I was so happy. HAHAHAHA. I am so lame. But it just makes me so happy when people say that and it was quite unexpected.
Make is a good class. Not only because the teacher is so easy to talk to and good at teaching, but also because it is the complete opposite of my studio and tech. I feel like I am really able to let go of theories and rules and just -make- and enjoy the process. It makes me excited, and that is a really good thing.
Mmm. After class, I was on the way home and I was thinking how recently i've been kind of negative towards myself whenever I think "I really want to learn that." So... As most friends know, there are a lot of things I want to learn and I know that it's probably much better to learn things one at a time (focus on one interest at a time). I can't help but be excited to learn something or put it on my mental list of "things to learn before death" it's weird how this quality, which i find super positive, is or... at sometimes becomes a "negative" thing for me. I feel like i'm being unreasonable, or just silly to want to learn many things. Or I am overwhelming myself. Don't get me wrong, I'm not going to give up on learning because of these thoughts, but I've got to just sort through them and figure out why there is some negativeness towards it in my mind.
I suppose it may be because I feel like I have spread my mind too far over many different things. I think that I do feel more lost at the moment, in that I do not see myself going in a certain direction with my life. I don't see a single job or career. I look out onto a vast sea and I don't know what direction I want to go.
I think that that is one thing I really want to be exploring over the semester. I feel like I need some internal/mental/subconscious confidence in myself and this journey.
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