egg > you

Yesterday I stumbled upon one of my classmate's fb pages and, to my disgust, saw that she had updated her status to a super rude ass statement about one of my best friends at uni. It was indirect, but I knew what and who she was talking about because she'd go on and on about it during class. I'm still angry. Today she updated her status to something which began with, "A message to anyone who is thinking of buying a $1000 + bag..." and went on about how people who buy expensive things are shallow, how no bag is that expensive, that the person buying the bag is only doing so to raise their "social status" and ended her mini rant with "you are an idiot."

There are just so many things that are wrong about what she did. My mind is hurting just thinking of this. This is something that just completely obliterates my appreciation for somebody and I really hoped to not waste so much of my energy on being angry at this.

Ok this is making me super angers so moving on to things like food and happiness.

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Jing and I went to dinner last night and we ate this super yummy chilli fish hotpot sort of deliciousness with bean shoots and it was great!

(for people who don't know, Jing is my roomie) It's been ages since we've actually spoken properly. I normally wake up and leave the house before she wakes up and I go to bed before she comes home. Sometimes I feel like I live alone, hahaha. It was really good though to "catch up" and talk. I'd forgotten how well we communicate with each other and how easy it is to talk about everything. I like that our conversations are quite a bit more meaningful than regular conversation.

I explained to her my studio idea and for the first time I feel like I explained it clearly. We talked about a lot of things like what the heck this drink was (left):

For a long time I thought it was bitter melon juice... but it was actually winter melon and it was nice and sweet!

It was a really filling dinner. We still have leftovers yummmmmm!

I just noticed it's the first of June. My body is freaking out that it's four days till I'm 21. I was talking to Jing during dinner about age (I think we were talking about her ex's and how old they were ect) and I told her that I already feel that I'm older than I am and she said, "Sometimes I think you're older than me..... even though you don't look it!!" She's only two years older than me though, but I was pretty surprised to hear that (not in a bad way, it was just interesting!!)

I started writing this yesterday (Thursday) but I got tired an stopped so everything I have written above this sentence was from then...

I've been going to so many electrical shops to ask about lights that have strong beams and that can create walls of light. I got so many confused faces when I told people my ideas. But I'm so lucky to have had shop helpers be... super kind and patient with me. One of the guys literally turned off half the lights in the store to see if a light would make a beam. Unfortunately it was still too bright, but I was just quite happy that he was nice.

I honestly thought that light walls would be easier to make... But, in a way, I'm happy that they aren't. Over the past week I have actually begun to really enjoy investigating my studio concept. I have even found myself making phone calls to ask places whether they have things... and people who know me know I hate calling people who I don't know. The people I've met have been really funny and happy. This one guy was super confused by my concept and I showed him my drawings and he was like, "OOOH I GET IT SOUNDS COOL." I'm like "thanks mannnnn." and then he asked me whether I knew about dry ice walls and I told him I did and he went onto telling me this story about he had some weed vodka and it "wasn't a good thing" but it was "really cool" because the bar he was at had these "walls made out of fog" and it was "really crazy" walking through them. He was funny.

I also went to the State Library to have a look at the old plans to the Queen Victoria Hospital that had been knocked down. I'd never been to the heritage reading room before and it was really quiet and kind of peaceful. The lady there was nice. She told me I had ordered a lot of papers and I had no idea that I had done so because when I ordered it there were no numbers saying how many papers came with the package.

She brought out one massive packet of plans and sections. I said, "whoa that is a lot!" and she told me I had two more.

had to wear gloves

I couldn't scan any of the documents, but I took a few photos of things that interested me. I'm not sure whether this will help me with my assignment but I think that just being able to look and touch the plans helped me connect more with the space and to me that is important enough.

I got really really excited when I opened the packet. I loved to see these markings made by people in 1954.

I know there are a lot of things out there that are older than me, but i found it so awesome to look at these papers. I was pretty energetic when looking through the first two packets and by the third one I had gotten super tired. I loved the weight of the old tracing papers, and the tape that they used to bind the tears in the paper and the feel of it. I like how it was all kind of falling apart and I also loved the little pencil marks of drawings and writing that had almost completely faded. It made me remember that one day I need to study archeology because that would be AWESOME i want to dig up stuff and find cool stuff! Ahhhh.

Hahaha I just thought of those drawings they made my class do in primary school of "what do you want to be when you grow up?" and mine had a picture of me in a shop and it said "I want to be a BUTCHER!" AHAHAHAHAH. I also remember that I wanted to be a magician (because they were really so so cool until I realised that some/most were in fact very very lame :c) and then I wanted to be an inventor. I'd make random things on my door that you had to press "before it opened up". Those were the best days. I think I still want to be an inventor and explorer!

Ah so tired. Would write more but sleep > most things