teethies

I cleaned my teeth. It was weird because they weren't in my mouth haha.
It's so odd to look at them closely. My surgeon broke apart one tooth to get it out of my jaw. When I look at the other teeth, I can see marks/scratches where he must have cut or pulled. Mum showed me this afternoon, a little container I had as a kid. It's a tiny porcelain "tooth keeper" which has a tooth fairy standing next to a horse on the top of it. When I opened it I saw all my teeny tiny kids teeth - not all... but some of them. I put them next to my wisdom teeth and my wisdom teeth are giants in comparison.

full moon aroo aroo

cherry tree

Today I picked the cherries from our backyard. yum yum! Dad and I picked over 3kg of them!

3 more

Only 3 more antibiotic tablets to go! Yay.

The operation went well. They put a little needle in my arm (intravenous sedation) and I fell asleep for half an hour and in that time my dentist pulled out all my wisdom teeth. I woke up feeling fine - as if I had just woken up in the morning. As I rested in the patient's room, I mumbled to the nurse, "my teeeeeethhh" and she handed me a bag with all my teeth in it, haha. I got little to no bruising and I don't think my face was puffy either. Just a bit of jaw pain and loads of blood for the first day. I was allergic to the pain killers (I took some and then I got this non-itchy red patches all over me) soooo I stopped taking them.

Today, mama surprised me with a gift. I've been wanting this blue glass bear since the start of the year. Mum and I saw it at this trash and treasure/antique shop at the market and I'd visited it three times but just didn't want to spend my money on something i didn't need. We went to the market yesterday, mum told me I better go see if the bear was there and if it was I should buy it. When I got there the bear was gone and I just said to mum, "At least it has gone to someone who will love it."
I walked into the main bathroom to brush my teeth and I saw a package with my name on it and got really confused and went to mum and said, "why is there a gift?!" and she was all cute and had written me a card that said she should be able to buy me a gift even though it's not christmas or my birthday. In the card she wrote "something you have wanted but couldn't bear to spend your savings on" hahahah I love her and her thoughtful gift!! It is already so precious to me.

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I baked a pie yesterday. The first pie that I have ever made alone. Mum said that I worried the whole way through. HOWEVER. My worrying made a really yum pie. worry = yum? Possibly not. But poached apples (in cinnamon and clove) in a pie with ice cream sure does.

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Sarah X is in Canberra at the moment. Today we picked her up and took her to my house! She met my cat and also the stranger fat cat that sat outside my front door (I have never met this cat before. I thought it was a pregnant lady cat, but when I went outside to pat it/ roll it all around it seemed to be just a fat boy cat. I don't know why it is at my house, maybe it is the secret boyfriend of my kitty oh la la... or maybe my love for fat cats was so strong that it attracted the fat cat to meeee)

S looked through pictures of me as a kid, and then we played with lego and what began as innocent ideas ( "let's make an ice cream store out of lego!") turned into weird weird things / war between our lego figures and crazy hide outs. When we finished building we looked at each other in horror and worry at what we had created.

Later, we stuffed our faces with dumplings. I laughed afterwards because when I asked S what she wanted to eat she said, "something light!" and we ended up eating sooooo many dumprinngggszzz.

I took her to the park next door. They recently renovated the park... and added new things. There is this one swing (i must have written about this before) that was just SO COOL I WANT IT. It's a massive swing and when S was pushing me on it i wanted to fall asleep. It was so relaxing. I felt like I was a baby in the arms of my mother. That is how good it is. It's a time machine.

We rode the bikes down to the lake and later went to the supermarket to eat some callipo icey poles! It was so good to hang out with her in Canberra. She's the first uni friend to see my house!

Has been a happy day.

wahhh

teeth. out. tomorrow.

I saw my doctor last week and literally made her check everything. She told me that I got food poisoning and that it could take up to a month to fully recover because this food poisoning made a virus on my stomach or some cray thing. However, I am feeling way better now.

I'm really not looking forward to tomorrow. Im not getting put under and I'm not just getting needles. It's like... I am just drugged so I am totally OK about what is happening and I can be aware of things but apparently I will be at peace with it all?? And then after a while I will forget... according to my doctor.

The operation is early in the morning. I cant eat or drink anything 6 hours beforehand. That shouldn't be a problemo.

I have been in bed for almost 3 weeks. I got offered to redo a menu in a Melbourne cafe by one of my friend's friends. It's odd that when I apply for jobs I don't get it and then when I don't apply for things ... I get something. But it has been really good. The owner has been really kind to me and I think this experience is good, even though I don't get to design anything.

I made a house for my cat and she loves it. Whoohoo. And I have been helping out with a garage sale my ma and pa had (I designed the space. HAHAHA oh university comes in handy. Not really... but kind of actually)

I met with Abbey yesterday. She picked me up and we saw a Breaking Dawn and I laughed so hard through the whole movie, gosh it was horrible.

I am so looking forward to some movies that are coming out soon!

My sister got engaged a while ago and only recently their landlord decided to move back into the house. So my sister and her fiance (that is still weird for me to say) are moving back into my family home. My sister said to me, "IT'LL BE JUST LIKE OLD TIMES" ... which is... true and will be interesting. My brother will have to move back in, haha.

I sat in the garden today and my cat came and sat next to me.

Canberra has such beautiful sunsets... Almost every day. It's super lovely.

Photos later...

I miss you.

later days

I have been in bed for the last two - three days feeling so so sick. I saw my doctor yesterday and she told me I have either a virus or the flu. It's been pretty bad... My fever has been on and off and was as high as 41 a few nights ago.

My doctor told me to eat some plain food - because I haven't been eating anything since I started feeling ill cus it makes me want to throw up. It's been really hard to want to eat cus my appetite has almost dropped to zero... but I have managed to eat a tiny bit every 9 hours or so.

I have been feeling pretty shit. Jing hasn't been home much because of work and she left this weekend to go to her boyfriend's house... so I have been home alone pretty much the whole time. I felt quite sad that she wasn't considerate enough to just stay one more night here to make sure that I was ok (cus I am leaving tomorrow)

I really wanted to go to INDEX tonight... I wanted to see everyone before they went on holidays and I wanted to drink and be happy and see people's work. But it's just not meant to be. I care a lot for my body and so I think being at home is definitely the right choice. I probably would have frozen. Only one of my friend's texted me to see if I was coming and if I was alright. At this point, I am just wanting to go back to Canberra where family will actually look after me. I was so grateful to Shannay yesterday because she drove me to the doctor from Glen Waverely station.

I am feeling slightly better cus of rest and I just ate a bit of apple and that was good... But I always feel better when I am not moving.

This week has been pretty shit health-wise. I think I overdid it with the hand-in. Way too many hours at uni and not enough proper food. I don't even remember eating properly which is so bad and I am never doing that again. Losing weight like this feels sucky and so bad.

I took a break to see Pandas at the site during the week. I was tired all the time and my head was super hazy but I liked the change of atmosphere and their comforting hugs. I am hoping they will have an awesome time in Jap.

Here are some photos from that afternoon:

第一個熊貓

（the first panda ... being a projector holder heehee)

 

第一個熊貓和第二個熊貓

I am now waiting for my body to be tired so I can rest well. I'm watching old disney tv cartoons. The one I am watching is called "The Weekenders" and I remember thinking as a child that it was the funniest thing. I still like it. I think it is making my body much happier.

I am hoping this sickness will leave my body soon so I can actually feel like Uni is over for the year (whoop)

wat up

I will properly update once University is officially over for the year whoo hoo can't wait.

I have been slowly reading The First and Last Freedom by Krishnamurti and I am liking the words.

I am currently making a new song just so I can relax a little after a half day spent sitting in Uni staring at a screen : ( I would much rather be painting the Index site with Pandas but I just want to get tech done soooo badly.

Last night was the studio exhibition. Yi Li and I set up our space. She and I worked really really well together and I was so surprised because we haven't spoken much over the semester. We were both pleased with our impulsive decision to string tape across the screen. I had a really happy night talking to everybody. I don't socialise much... so it was a really nice change from the home-alone-wishing-i-had-a-cat state.

I left to find Jimmy, Sim, Haley, Frankie and C Y at a cafe. They were eating a bit of food and playing a card game. They told me I should join and I did. I didn't know the game so Sim and Jim were being helpful and telling me the rules. We played and when it was my turn I made a mistake and this girl from my year snickered and told me off saying, "HAH why did you put down TWO cards??" and I thought to myself how much of a bitch she was being, just laughing at me for not understanding the game. I ended up beating her in the game ho ho ho ho ho.

I keep having these moments during the day... Where I am just listening to music and walking around and then suddenly I think to myself, "What if  -insert friend name here-  was here right now?" and then I smile to myself and I feel so happy and then I realise that I am walking around smiling my face off at my own thoughts. It's not bad, it's just interesting.