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Ahhhhhh so angry!! Nooo!! Zor if you are reading this. Gosh darn you. I love you never do that again or I will steal your cat and never let you eat tom yum again. I MEAN IT.

Moving on.

We finished Cinema class early today. Louis taught us basics to After Effects and that was quite cool and he took the class on a small adventure through many random doors of RMIT until we found the green screen. It wasn't all that exciting. Literally just a screen painted green... but it was really interesting and weird getting there. RMIT is a maze.

"how about we do a floating heads installation in the GPO? We can all wear green so only our faces show..."

After I successfully bought my breakfast foods and some tom yum all on sale (sooo goood so many yums) I took the tram home and I wrote. Ignore the random After Effects notes.

I love my new notebook. I think I rub my face on things that I like... I was rubbing the lapis lazuli on my face yesterday after I bought it... Soooo bluuue sooo beautiful.

I am quite honestly tired of feeling this sadness. Like I said in my writing I need to "cheer the fuck up" because there is no point in this sadness. It's the terrible sadness which is numb and emotionless. I would much prefer the emotional and expressive sadness rather than my current state of not caring for much. Many roars.

I've been worried about a fair few things of late. I am going to just let things be and go with the flow of life because worrying doesn't do anything but make my heart and mind weary. I want to do well in uni. I need to stop having silly doubt in myself when I do my work or when I create things for class. I need to not over think things and just try and explain these ideas I have in my mind. I want to be happier and I want to love the world again. & I am already feeling better. There are plenty of things to look forward to and so much more to learn and experience.

ZORAH JUST CAME UP WITH THE BEST THEME EVER ---> AWKWARD. AHAHAHAHAHA. Oh god awkwardness is so powerful I am excited. Literally laughing my face off at the ideas that are coming into my mind.

I'm listening to a whole bunch of 60s music to make me happier. If you'd like to join me here's some:

The Loco-Motion  -- Little Eva
My Guy -- Mary Wells
Baby Love -- Diana Ross & The Supremes
What A Wonderful World --Louis Armstrong
Can't Take My Eyes Off You -- Andy Williams
My Girl -- The Temptations
I Say A Little Prayer -- Aretha Franklin
Sugar Sugar - The Archies

I will awkward dance the rest of this gross feeling awaaaayyyyyy ~~~

XO