I met up with mum and dad at the NGV and we had some coffee and macaroooonnnnsss. They had never lay down on the NGV floor to look up at the ceiling so I told them to do it! Mum was too shy to do it so he just took photos of dad and me lying down. Sillyyy.
I spent the weekend at pp and gg's. It's so nice to see them. PP was feeling ill the first night. I was pretty worried. The previous week she told me she knew she didn't have much time left. But whenever I go to visit she gives me a huge hug and I feel that she is so strong.I like being there to give her massages and also just notice her facial expressions and see her laugh. GG loves nature programs so I ask him what he's been watching, but I don't talk to him as much. Sometimes I feel like I'm disturbing him. I remember a few years back he was asking me to come and help him choose a new car. He was so excited. It was nice.
When night fell, I began to feel doubt in myself and some sort of overwhelming nervousness. I don't know why this has suddenly happened. I haven't felt this in quite a while. It was almost alien to me, I'd forgotten that part of myself but then it just appeared in front of me. A darkness and discomfort. I felt so ill.
It was surprising how easily sleep came to me.
I woke up to the sunrise and my mind cleared. I watched for almost an hour as it slowly rose. The colours were so beautiful. I heard the birds waking up and in the distance I heard loud trucks moving heavily along the highway. I went back to bed.
When I properly woke up I ate my vitamin right away (cus I didn't want to forget) and about 20 minutes later I felt like I was dying. It was only because I hadn't eaten anything else. So I tried to eating some fruit but I literally wanted to throw up and die. SO a note-to-self to never doing that again. (I told my old roomie about this and she said, "You totally did that when we were living together in Taiwan." - I felt so silly. I can't believe I forgot that. I suppose I forget painful things?)
During the day I celebrated my cousin's son's fourth birthday. He had a lego birthday cake. The icing was so blue, it looked like someone had run around the room and painted everybody's faces blue. It was pretty funny. The kids were pretty cute. There were the obvious tantrums and "accidents". It was so interesting to hear and see them interacting. Most of the time they were doing their own thing. A little girl came to me with some random toy and she told me she'd make me as many fruit drinks as I wanted. So i got a mango, a strawberry and mandarin juice. I imagined that it was tasty.
My cousin brought his SLR to take photos of his kids and family. I played with it for a while and now I am keen on getting my own. It's fun to be able to manually zoom ect. I REALLY MISS BEING ABLE TO ZOOM ON A CAMERA. But I have gotten quite used to the fact my camera doesn't zoom (even though I did have dreams where I was able to zoom. It was amazing)
He bought himself a Leica a couple years ago. He let me play around with it and it was super beautiful, but sooo expensive. Oh man.
I had a nice time at the party. I left early to go to Uni with Shannay and do rhino work. We stayed there all day and most of the night. I'm really glad that I have to meet up with. It makes doing the work so much easier and more fun, even though we always have silly, but fun, arguments about things.
The train ride back to Glen Waverely was pretty funny. We were both so tired and delusional. I remember laughing a lot.
That night I couldn't sleep. My head was filled with unfinished work. I felt as though I should have been content working for 6 hours and doing some work. But I wasn't. I read till sleep came.
This morning the world was covered in a fog. I woke up to and email from Eddie that began, "... ughh, I am sooooo hung over." Hahaha. It was so nice to hear from him and hear that he had fun celebrating becoming older. I miss him always.
I spent the first half of the day with mum, buying asian food and looking at an op shop and redecorating my room. It was a very nice morning.
Later I went to Uni to finish off Rhino and 3dMAX. I'm happy this part is over.
I'm thinking of going away for a couple of days.
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