just start

During the holidays I did a bit of drawing. It was really odd cus normally I draw when I'm thinking lots and just need to release energy... I don't usually think about what I'm about to create, I just do it, but while I was in Canberra I was completely relaxed. I picked up my pencil and I wanted to do some still life drawings. Before I even managed to put pencil to paper I just got super scared and thought, "... what if I cant draw that tree? ... what if what I draw doesn't look like a tree?" and then immediately afterwards another part of me sighed in response and said, "How are you going to get better and get more confident if you don't even begin?"

SO. I'm scared of starting a lot of things, but I shouldn't be. I have to start somewhere and things will always be unfamiliar at the beginning. I think I might throw myself into a few things this semester and just TRY NOT TO THINK ABOUT IT too much so I actually get to do it. We'll see where life goes.

Yesterday I had brunch with Elaine at Green's on Sydney Road (mentioned this place in an earlier post - they are the ones with the pancakes) I did not get pancakes though. I got french toast with a poached pear and it was yum but the serving was huge and next time I will need to share fo sho.

french toast with yogurt, cinnamon and poached pear

We went to Vic Markets and I found....

MANGOSTEEEEEEEN yum yum yum (best fruit ever)

I took Elaine to meet Vic. I haven't been interning at Vic's for almost a month cus I have been holidaying in Canberra. I felt so bad for not being there to help out... But she was happy to hear about my holidays & birthday party awkwardness. It was really nice to see her again. I think seeing/talking with Vic every week is something that I have missed. 

i bought collected poems! now I have all the Plath i will ever need

I had coffee with Elaine at this really italian place. I ordered a "Latte" and after the waitress walked off, Elaine pointed out this sign on the wall that said "It's not "Latte" - Latte is milk. You order "Caffe Latte"! - Coffee with milk! " and I was so worried I was just going to get milk... (I got coffee. It's all good.)

We said our goodbyes and I ran off to this university collab meeting. I had no idea what it was really really about... But one of the teachers mentioned something about it before the balloting speeches and I wrote down the address and the time and thought "I should just go to see what it was about". Dylan was going to come with me but he had work and when I got there... I surrounded by graduates and fourth years and I couldn't help but ask, "... I'm in second year... Is it ok that i'm here??" it was open to whoever so that was really good.

We met up with these people from a furniture company in Melbourne who are planning to have a open day & night club over a couple of days to promote their business. We were basically discussing what would be shown on a large LED screen and also on a number of large plasma screens around the interior. A mixture of texture projection/ images and also their own furniture. It was super interesting.

I got to know this girl from fourth year called Emma from this town just out of Beijing. She did Crash Course Cinema with Louis a couple of years ago and her one was awesome -these giant fish balloon things floating around the GPO. It was really atmospheric. We talked a fair bit about lots of things and she seemed to know her stuff on computers and Ross (one of the interior design teachers) said her thesis was on air or something! We added each other on fb and i when I checked facebook today she had written on my wall saying, "Mmm...Lovely 小玲 同学, very interesting you are : )" ( 小玲 同学 - the first two characters mean  "little Ling" - Ling is the second part of my chinese name and the second two characters means classmate, for those who don't know chinese)

I don't know how to respond when people write things like this. She's really nice though, so i'm looking forward to working with her!

After the meeting I went to uni to check which classes I was in. I met Jimmy there and he had these really nice shoes... They were these two material ones that i've liked for ages. I tried them on and almost ran away with them. But they were way too big for me : ( 

I got my first preferences for both Comm and Studio classes. I don't know how they'll be but I'm sure to write about them in the future. My Comm class is Make which means I have a 4 day Uni week. I don't really mind that though. For Studio I got this one called "Expanded Screen" I don't even know how to explain it but it seems quite a lot about projection and stage work. The girl teacher said there would be lots of reading and I am not keen on that aspect already. Hoping I get my first preference to Tech. Not sure when those classes come out though!

Michael and I are in two classes together which should be really good. I haven't been in any studio classes with him before, but we're both pretty interested in stage work, so it'll be nice to get to know him more! I texted him, "Dude we're in the same classes!!" and he replied "Yay! So excited!"
Shannay, Michael and I are in the same Comm class again. I'm so looking forward to stressful days with them. It's just quite funny.

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I couldn't really sleep last night. I think I was hungry because I forgot to eat after the coffee. I woke up early and decided that I need to start doing things so I began making something new.

making myself a black cat

I also wanted to just play around with paint. It's actually be like a whole year since I've properly touched paint so I'm slowly going to get into it again.