I feel like a huge hypocrite for what I am about to type - simply because when I was younger, or even last year, I was a huge offender for not communicating to people (or person - which is more appropriate to last year) how I felt or, in last year's case, why the friendship wasn't good between us and why I couldn't sustain it. I ended up just not being able to talk to her or be around her and she had no clue to why I just suddenly disappeared and stopped communicating.
I honestly look back and think that I should have just told her what was happening and what she did to make me not want to be around her anymore. It is something that I cannot go back and fix, but I will always make sure that I never do that again.
I am quite oblivious to things - this may because I am disconnected to many things or maybe just because of things in the past that make me want to be unaware... Or maybe it is some self esteem sort-of-thing. Nonetheless, when something happens to a friendship and I don't quite understand what exactly has gone wrong, I tend to wait it out or wait for some resolution to come about... somehow. If it is me that has an issue I will most always bring it up and sort it out when becomes words in my mind. It is so much better this way because then the issues don't grow into an uncontrollable and monstrous black hole.
If you have an issue, tell me. It hurts much less than having to wait and wonder what the is up.
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Today was good. I went to the exhibition building in Carlton gardens and looked after the store while Vic took Peggy for a walk. I met a really nice retail lady from Sydney. She thought I wasn't in Uni yet... Yay 21 hasn't made me age suddenly. Hahaha. I also wandered to the store next to Vic's to see this video of this guy using the printing press to make cards and other brightly coloured paper things. I looked at the guy looking at me and, being really awkward, just like stared back and was like, "this is cool." and I meant it! It was really very cool to see a video on how it is all done. I wanted to ask him to teach me, because the tools looked really cool. The conversation we had was very stop and start. It was mainly me just awkwardly asking questions and him giving really short answers.
I was happy to see Vic and also to get my own badge thing with MY NAME ON IT. Like... Actually printed! It is just paper, but it was exciting!
Before class I met with Michael and Steph (3rd year) - they are the people in my first group project. I was worried about working with Steph because the first time I met her she was saying things like, "I don't want to get anything lower than an HD!" and "I don't like working with shit people" which made me worry and stress a bit. However, today was really good and really chill. We went to ACMI because I wanted to show them the Anthony McCall projection (the one I went to last semester when I was doing my final project) The exhibition was CLOSED for that day. Such bad timing I have with this exhibition!! So instead we sat together and discussed ideas for what we could create. It was really good communicating ideas our ideas with each other. We all seem to be quite on the same page, and open to things. It felt good.
I was so tired in class - gosh Friday classes are always so sleepy - It was even more sleepy than usual because we were in the computer labs in building 10 and, because we are doing projection, all the lights were turned off. My teacher was talking continuously for the whole lesson, I can't believe he wasn't tired. But he was so good at explaining things and he definitely knows his stuff. The programs were very intimidating, but I am really happy to just begin it and practise! We did a lot of simple tests and watched more awesome videos. It was definitely an intense lesson (for me) simply because I felt like I was being fed so so much information.
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Afterwards, Frankie, Jimmy, Sarah and I went to the Gertrude street projections. On the way there we saw fireworks in the distance (the ones that are at docklands every Friday this July) The projections were pretty good. I took lots of photos. I kept looking at the sky though. The trees were silhouetted. There were layers of different coloured white clouds on a dark dark blue sky. It was really beautiful.
interactive projection (the trees wilt when you go up to them) these guys kept running up to the wall and saying "die die!" as they clawed the air like animals haha
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