today has gone downhill

It started off really well. I woke up to a text from Vic who asked me whether I wanted to come over to help her out with setting up her stall. I met her at the shop and while she walked Peggy (her little dog) I spoke to Mark about my holidays. Afterwards, Vic and I headed to the Exhibition Building (where Design Made Trade) is held. I had to wear a bright orange vest so the security guards knew that I was working there. It was really nice that Vic wanted me to give advice about the placement of her stuff. Anyway I love helping her and seeing how those things work.

I went to Uni and met with Dylan, Michael, Viv, Sarah and others for our tech class. I'm am actually so excited for tech. The idea of making retreat is very appealing to me. I like being around Dylan because he is such a calm guy and is really positive to be around. I'm happy Ross is my tutor. He seems quite chill but also really knowledgable. I want to improve my drawing skills and computer skills while in his class. The main thing is becoming more confident in myself. That is one of my aims this semester.

Being home tonight has been a shit in the face. Jing has been excessively loud in every way and her friend and boyfriend have just taken a dive into my personal life and I just want them to get out get out get out now. I don't even want to be at home. There are so many places I would rather be right now.

I am feeling such a mixture of being super sad, feeling misunderstood and also angry. Having people that don't know me at all, tell me what I want or what I need is really horrible. I feel really gross.

I spoke to Jenny and cried a bit. It made me feel better. 

I think it's time for more guitar, a long shower, tea and then sleep.

Let the day end.


P.S

The sunset today was the best. It was the highlight of the day. There was a giant cloud of red and I walked after it for a half hour because I wanted it to stay in my mind forever. There is something so peaceful and pure about sunsets. I will always love that aspect of them. They will always rid my mind of worries and of sadness and fill it with calm. I am so thankful for the skies.